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What Happened When I Said Yes



Looking back through some journal writings, I came across something that I forgot all about! This is why the bible instructs us to look back, or remember the things that God has done for us, or spoken to us, so we will stay encouraged.
Here’s a little encouragement for any weary momma today that homeschools, or if you’re not a homeschool momma, but you are struggling with any shame in your life because you said,”YES”to God out of obedience.” When I said “Yes”, the enemy came in with shame, but he did not succeed.

I was reading the book of John 12:23-27

Jesus replied, “Now the time has come for the Son of Manl to enter into his glory. 24I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat is planted in the soil and dies, it remains alone. But its death will produce many new kernels—a plentiful harvest of new lives. 25Those who love their life in this world will lose it. Those who care nothing for their life in this world will keep it for eternity. 26Anyone who wants to be my disciple must follow me, because my servants must be where I am. And the Father will honor anyone who serves me.

27“Now my soul is deeply troubled. Should I pray, ‘Father, save me from this hour’? But this is the very reason I came! 28Father, bring glory to your name.”

There is a wrestling going on here in the flesh. Wrestling whether to continue or ask the Father to rescue Him from the cross (His calling and purpose). But He remembers what His calling is……to bring glory to the Father.

He is saying,”Let your will be done!”

He is saying,”Let your will be done!”


This very passage is screaming so loudly at me today as a reminder that God called me, called me to homeschool my babes without SHAME. This is my vocation and calling. Has God called you to 
homeschool? Has God called you to something else? Whatever it is ,you are to DO IT without SHAME! The enemy is a sly fox. He will come in, and whisper you in a state of shame ( he will try), but he doesn’t have to succeed. We have power through Christ over the lies of shame. We must remind ourselves “who” called us,and why we are doing what we are doing. That is what keeps us through hard times in our calling.

God had no shame when he hung on that cross, as He was dying, sacrificing His LIFE for others.

He is reminding us that HE is calling us to do His work. HE has called us to do it without any SHAME.    He said above in this passage that those who love their life in this world will lose it. Those who care nothing about their life in this world will gain eternity.
What do we have to do when we follow God’s call? We must die according to verse 24. We must die to reap a harvest (Not a physical death,  but a sacrificial death of our self will). We will reap  the harvest of  God’s glory to those He called us to. It’s not about us, but about others. Whomever those others are that God has called us to. We must submit (yield to God’s plan) our lives to Christ fully. Whatever HE is calling us to do will require a death to selfie. Yes, I said a death to selfies (our own fleshly wants).


Who wants the glory out of us obeying, and letting go of shame? Jesus wants the GLORY!!!! Simple. We know this. God revealed to me that HE didn’t want me dwelling in shame, because I obeyed His call to homeschool my kids. The reason I felt such shame after I said “YES” to God was because I was concerned what “others” would think of me homeschooling my babes. The roll tape proceeded, “Why shouldn’t I be working a job somewhere or bettering myself in college, instead of homeschooling the kiddos?”

We really are not a family of high income (this was another insecure thought) it proved I wasn’t TRUSTING my Father to provide all we needed. If HE called, doesn’t He provide?
It doesn’t matter, because sooner or later we all will have to trust God, our Father, somewhere in life, either with our health, finances, or marriage…….something will have to be released from our wringing  hands of distrust, to God, in complete surrender. And that something will always be the moment of feeling out of control. That’s where we realize how GREAT He is! So, here was the “AHA” moment for Candice:

Just as Christ laid down His will, sacrificed (gave up his own will of flesh), and hung on the cross, (it was not a place of shame and disgrace for Jesus), but the place where Jesus’ glory was shown. So it is, that my obedience to lay down my will, and homeschool is not a shame or disgrace, but the place where God’s glory will be revealed  through my life and my family, because of obedience.
I kept thinking about the verse that stated, 24I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat is planted in the soil and dies, it remains alone. But its death will produce many new kernels—a plentiful harvest of new lives. The kernel represents our life.

If we don’t obey God, and lay down our own fleshly desires for His call, and purpose upon us, we will not see the lives that will be produced through obedience, and bring Him glory. God wants our kernel, our LIFE and gifting, He given us to use for His purpose. NO SHAME. SHAME will come if we hide that kernel (our life and God given gifting) and continue on in our own fleshly way. That is where shame comes in by disobeying. We give Him what is already His (what He created us to do) and we will reap the blessings, and glory of the Lord. That kernel (our life surrendered) must die first in order to reap many more lives that He desires to transform through our obedience. The dying comes in when we say YES to his will and NO to our will. We must die out in prayer. Submitting our bodies and soul (mind, will, and emotions) to God in prayer daily. It encapsulates surrender to God.

So, let go, cast off any shame you may feel about your calling and TRUST our Father. He is sovereign, and He knows what is best for each of our lives. Yes, people will talk, but that reveals where their lack of understanding, and relationship stands with the Father. Those who truly walk with God will totally “get you!”
Remember, NO SHAME, when we obey Jesus. Only peace, and provision ensue. SHAME comes when we disobey and think too much of what others will think. Focus on what God will think.

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